I made it!! IM 25!! ♥

Can you believe yesterday was my birthday? I mean I am 25 now!! It doesn't feel right! With everything that has been going on in my life yesterday became a day about new beginnings. I had a party to celebrate the end of one major chapter in my life and the beginning of a new larger chapter. As part of this I pampered myself. I paid for 2 massages at my last appointment because they were having a deal that if you buy 2 you get your second one at a discount. Therefore all i had to do was schedule the appointment and what better day then my birthday? It was such a good massage! I had her use extra pressure and really dig into my muscles. While there were parts that hurt the outcome was wonderful. I felt loose and refreshed, but it wasnt enough.
As some of you know I have been growing my hair out with intentions to donate it. Having fallen in love with the length I decided to keep growing it so it would be long when I cut it. I keep pushing it off and saying I am going to wait but yesterday it just felt right. I started thinking about it upon going to bed monday night and it just seemed like the right time to do it. I knew i wanted to darken the color again also so it was going to be a fun change.

I ended up donating the minimum which was a little sad because I had wanted to donate extra because i bet there are people with wigs who would like long hair. So once she rubber banded the hair to be cut she showed me the length my hair would come out to be. It was past my shoulders so I was happy. That was the one thing it had to be and thats so 1 it wouldnt be in my face constantly and 2 so it would still fit into a ponytail.
Once it was cut it was time to dye it. The dye came out much redder then I had anticipated but I know that it will dull out after a wash or two and be a little closer to what i had imagined. Once it was colored it was time to do the final style cut. I have wanted long bangs that were shorter then my hair but still able to go behind my ears.. I knew that short bangs looked bad so i was nervous. But after playing with my hair at home and getting a couple opinions I knew it was what I wanted.

Now that all is said and done my hair is a dark red (brighter at the roots until washing) and sits just below my shoulder with long bangs in the front that hit just below my nose. Most importantly though... I LOVE IT!!

I had thought about getting a mani/pedi done also but was exhausted when I was done. Plus the nurse called me back about not feeling well and going to the hospital last week right before I left to get my hair done. In this conversation she told me I was to be on bed rest until she called me on Thursday with an update from the doctor on what he wants to do with me.
It had been hard trying to get a hold of people up there and my coordinator called while I was getting my hair done and seemed kind of upset that I had told someone else how stressed they were making me over how hard it was to get someone to return my calls. After all was said and done I am to work with the nurse and the doctor and leave the coordinator out of it for this episode... What fun!
While it sucks being told to go on bedrest on my birthday..I did get to enjoy it as much as I would have anyways.
First I would like to thank everyone who wished me a Happy Birthday on facebook/online or via text messages...thank you for taking those few seconds to remember me. Next, I want to thank everyone who came to the party for being there as it meant a lot to me. I also want to thank you all for the gifts as they were wonderful. I want to thank my mommy for letting me live through my childhood and teen years and for giving me life in the first place. I'd also like to thank her and the family for the shirts I got...she knows me well and bought some that I had picked out and not told anyone... And last but not least I would like to thank Dan. He has put up with a lot from me and still let me have my party and buy my own gifts...In the end he still gave me something small to open on my birthday and that was special to me.

Thank you to you all for helping me have a WONDERFUL birthday!

sick on my birthday...again...tho this time its a little different!

Hey everyone!!
So I am finally get to write this. I havent been able to really sit down and write because my words havent been easy to come by.
The other day I was in the hospital just after lunch because my heart started fluttering which caused it to hurt. It ended up causing my to feel nauseous and faint. They did a bunch of tests but nothing came back abnormal. I guess that is good and bad. I wish we could figure out while I am feeling worse. They gave me oxycodone when I needed it and some nausea medication when my stomach started to hurt. There was a blood test that I caused me to not be able to eat after midnight until the blood was drawn at 8. Then they saw that I had an echo and decided I couldnt eat. I couldnt understand why, I have had tons of echos and its never caused me to be unable to eat.
When the doctors came in and asked me what they could do and I told them to let me eat. They said that there was no reason I couldnt eat. I was only having an echo not a stress echo. I bet you that intern felt pretty stupid, since she was the one saying I couldnt eat. So i was offered my breakfast that was a few hours old. (It was about 1030-11 at this point) or i could wait for my lunch try. I opted to wait but ate the apple that was my "desert" from the night before.

Anyways, by the time they decided that it would be better for everyone if I went home and medicated myself I was feeling worse, but it didnt seem to matter. I feel awful and don't know what else to do. I have slept terribly the past few nights and even took an ambien last night and didnt sleep well. Also, one of the major problems I have had is when I am walking (usually in or out of somewhere, where the atmosphere is different) I get really blurry vision. It gives me headaches and makes me faint. The past couple days have been soo much worse. I wish that everything would just get better so I could actually live my life without all this medical drama.
Because of all this I decided that since there was already an email in to Linda my coordinator that Dan wrote when I went to the ER and a call to her office to update them that I would bypass them and just leave a message for the doctor to have one of his nurses to call me as soon as they can. That way I can talk to someone as soon as I can tomorrow morning and maybe have the chance of feeling better on my birthday.

When I was 16 I was told that by my 25th birthday I would have had a transplant or atleast be on the list. I am excited that I actually made it to my birthday. I will be a quarter of a century! How awesome is that!!!


Well its time to post this, finish getting ready for the party (put a few things away and go pick up the cake and some ice cream) and watch the end of Ugly Betty from Friday night.

Have a great day everyone. Sorry if you miss the party. Its going to be fun :)

3 Years Gone By

So its has been a long time since i wrote and I actually left off in the middle of a story. We are going to skip all that :)

Ive been thinking a lot lately about how fast this year has gone. It seems like just yesterday I was taking the Christmas tree down and now we are setting it back up. However, last night it was the 3 year anniversary of Daniel proposing. It amazing me that its been 3 years. On top of it being 3 years since Daniel proposed it has been 7 years since the very first time he emailed me. He had just gotten to Guam and gotten my email from my friend, at the time, Justin.

Time has just gone by so fast...

Here is one of our engagement pictures taken by our roommate Clayton...



and my beautiful ring

So yesterday after I finished my blog they called me back to prep and do my CT scan. I was so nervous because I had never done one before. So they got my vitals when they first took me back. When they took my tempurature though, it was neat cause it just gets slid across your forehead! No in ear or oral thermometers which was nice but I thought it was pretty cool that they could get an acurate temp. that was.
Once my vitals were over they sent dan back into the waiting room and took me into the scan room. After some discussion about my pacemaker and heart rate they decided they wanted my rate as low as 55. Therefore when I wallked in the room there was a tech to turn down my pacer.
As soon as that was done she left, the tech and other guy that was working with him (above him) was all that was left. I am not sure what the guy in the suit was doing but I know the tech preped me by putting stickers on me to monitor my heart rate .
Once all that was done I was told just to relax and take in a breath and hold it when told. They did thios for me to practice for the infusion scan and so they could calibrate the machine.
When it was time to practice the infusion itself they tech looked at my IV and said it was small and loose so he may need to change it. However instead of changing it he just kept moving it. He realize it was twisted so he tried to untwist it. I kept yelping as he moved it and I kept asking him to just change it. It hurt like hell and I have a lovely bruise in my elbow now. So after doing all that he decided that it may work.
To do the infusion of the contrast I had to have my arms up. So I put my arms up and he pressed the buton for 'sterile water' as he put it, to check the IV before they ran the contrast. The liquid started gushing out of my arm! I was freaking ouit. He grabbed my arm holding the IV in place while stopping to pump.
If I wasn't scared enough already, that sure did it. They already told me that the contrast makes you feel like your burning hot especially on your throught and that you've wet yourself. Now I was scared that another IV was going to explode all over me again. They hadn't made me change so I was wearing my shirt and got watered down blood all over the back of my sleeve. I also got very sticky which didn't make sense if it was just water. The tech said that the contrast can make you feel sticky. I was very confused because if he was using the 'practice' fluid and not the contrast why was I sticky?

Will finish later. Dun w PET and am not doing good.

Johns Hopkins Day 1 morning update

Hey everyone!
Here I am back in a hospital. Dan and I are chillin in the waiting room at Johns Hopkins waiting for my CT. I met the doctor this morning and did an echo.
The echo kind of sucked because I had to smell this really bad stuff that increases my heart rate like I did at Mayo. They also did a bubbles test where they aggrivate saline so that its bubbles and put that into my blood via IV and watch how it goes through my heart. That is how they originally found the whole in my heart but they couldn't find it.
Also done was what they call contrast. This is where they put this medicine in me (that starts with a D but I can't remember the name). It is white when aggrivated and turns the blood in my heart white so that they can see the edge of where the ventricle ends and the muscle begins.
When they do echos here they usually do treadmill stuff but thank the Lord I didn't have to do that! I got bad butterflies in my stomach when they rolled me into the door way and I saw the treadmill.
While I was in there they decided they also wanted me to have a CT scan today! I told them that I ate this morning because it said on my schedule that I couldn't for the 2 hours before my echo.
I thought that was wierd enough and when they started the echo before I saw the doctor like my schedule said I got nervous. I asked the tech (who was awesome and I'm pretty sure gay) and he said that's only for treadmill patients so it was okay.
When they started talking about the CT I told them I ate by 630 they said they would try the 2pm appt today but then came back in and told me it was at 12 and thay I needed to leave the IV in but could get dressed and wait in the waiting room.
About 45 minutes of waiting passed which was also an hour until my CT and told me that they needed referals for everything. So I gave her my primary care drs # biut told her dr Mitchell was her best bet. So within the next few minute I decided to call Nicholas who works the front desk at NavalMedCenter Cardiac Clinic and knows me and my situation very well and he said the lady was on the other line.
So just a minute ago actually she came out to tell me she got it and nicholas called me to say they did it. Yeaahhhh!! Now I don't have to pay for all this! Nicholas said that Mitchell told him if they need anything else for my appts that Nicholas can take care of it. So he gave me his pager number just in case he leaves the desk so that I can get referals and stuff done ASAP.

So that is my update of the morning. I'm typing this from my blackberry and sooo tired. I am barely staying awake and my eyes keep crossing. So I am done here and going to slouch down in my seat and doze a little until my scan.

Katie
Sent from my Verizon Wireless BlackBerry

Vacation!

Is headed to Utah for Ben's wedding next Friday (Dan's older brother). It should be a fun week, just hope I can keep up!

As soon as we get back we will be leaving for Baltimore. I will be having tests done at Johns Hopkins. Wish me luck!!

Have a great Memorial Day Weekend everyone! Be safe!!!!

Chip's 2nd Birthday Party

PICTURES

There are the pictures. I hope you enjoy them as much as I do. We had a great time hanging with our friends and Chip's friends. We had burgers and chips and cupcakes.. Where as the pups had "Devil's Doggie Food Cake" which is "Our carrot cake with carob mixed in to look and taste like chocolate cake. It is available iced with either a Peanut Butter & Carob icing or a White Fluffy Honey icing." which I ordered from The Working Dog Bakery which just opened in March but has had there sign up for a while which was just calling my name. Here is the link Doggie barkery.LOL I'm hilarious!! Anyways they do deliver so you can always order something :). Once the dogs figured out that it was really for them they loved it. Chip could only eat half his piece and then Bonnie ate the rest a little while later. It was funny.

anyways enjoy the pictures, leave comments if you'd like. :)..

chestpain+lightheadedness = admission to hospital

Hey everyone,
So by now you probably know I was in the hospital last night for chest pain and lightheadedness. They kept me over night more for observation and didn't really do anything but watch my blood pressure. The doctors decided to send me up to Johns Hopkins which is fine with me. We have all decided that we are out of options as we have tried what the doctors at Mayo Clinic recommended. I was also visited by someone from pain management. Sooo it has been decided to lower my heart medication because it isnt helping the pain as much as it is lowering my blood pressure and the dr at JH said he needs some blood pressure to work with. They also decided to up my painkiller dosage and are trying another medication on top of it along with a different break through pain killer.

i will follow up with Pain Management on Friday to discuss how I am feeling on the increase dosage and stuff.
Then i will follow up with my new(er) Cardiologist on May 4th to see how I am doing in general.

After that i will be going to JH for testing, one of which is already scheduled. The stress test tech called to schedule me and I was so sad when she said what it was for. But they have been informed that I do not like stress tests and do not always have a good result so they are going to give me a medication to "stress" my heart instead of making me exercise.

They also want to do a cardiac MRI which they say will be able to tell them if it is my heart that is causing the pain. They will be able to see if the pain is from not enough blood or what not.... so that will be good.

That is my dr update for the day.. Time to finish watching Yes Man with Dan, Dill and Chip then off to bed!

night!

Easter Weekend

Wow, I can't believe it has been a month since I wrote last...and even then i didn't really write much.
Dan's mom, Momma Jean, and step dad, Mark, got into town last night. This is the first time they have come to visit us so it is really nice for them to see our house and all that fun stuff. They have been to Virginia Beach before but haven't seen the area we live in. We are going to show off where we work (well more where Dan works) and do some touristy stuff. We are planning on going to Williamsburg on Monday. I am excited I want to do more touristy stuff while we live here. There is so much in this area so now would be the perfect time to take advantage. As the weather gets nicer it will be more fun.
Tomorrow we will be going to Easter service which I am also very excited about. As I have gotten more into Church I am reminded of what I have been missing. I just hope that I can get to where I want to be with my faith.
I hope everyone has a great Easter! I will write more and post pictures later!

blackberry

I got the blackberry curve 8330. It rocks my socks!

Sorry

Sorry to anyone who got a wierd email from me. I was going to try out a spam blocker and when I went to add your emails to the OKAY list, it instead emailed you. Gotta hate those "hidden meaning" buttons!

again sorry!

Glasses

So I got my glasses today! They look way cute, but are giving me a headache. Hopefully once I get used to them they will take away the headaches that I was getting. Or at least some of those headaches. I know some are from my heart needed more oxygen so then my brain doesn’t get enough but I don’t know why I get them when I am reading or concentrating on something. Hopefully the glasses will help that. The optometrist said I have astigmatism and a focus problem which could be the source of the headaches. Sadly though.. I have to be difficult when it comes to my glasses like have I have been all my life and get “old” people glasses. They are progressive lenses so that I only need one pair of glasses. The top half makes looking for away more clear and easier to focus on and the bottom half is more for reading and seeing really close. And those lenses fade into each other in the middle. Its really weird and will definitely take time to get used to. I have to move my entire head when I look down or to the sides because of it which kind of sucks but I guess I just have to deal with it. I can’t ever be an easy patient. :)

 

Anyways, here are a few pictures..

Work Update

Yesterday I had a meeting with one of the owners about everything that is going on at the hotel. I think the meeting went very well but I am very nervous as to what the outcome will be because I have been blown off before about these problems. I do hope that they will take the right steps to fixing the hotel. Sadly, nothing has been done yet like I would have loved but it is nice because I do have a few medical things I have to finish before I can start working the desk again. Today I had a dentist appointment, tomorrow I have a chiropractor consult follow up and then next week I FINALLY get to see the psychiatrist and get my medication adjust and I also get to start my disability!!

Secondly, I would just like to share that 'He's Just NOT That Into You' is really cute! It was very enjoyable and I am glad that Dan gave in and took me. I do not know what we will be doing on Valentine's Day and would prefer to keep it quiet as I am not a fan of large groups. If we do anything we will probably go to the movies Saturday morning like we normally do. HOWEVER!! Because all the post offices around here close so early (for our work hours and the distance they are from the house) so we are going to get our passports on Saturday morning because one of the post offices that does pictures also is open from 9am-2pm. It will be much easier then having to rush too much after work.

That is all :)

Busy weekend!

So I am finally going to quit being lazy (for a few minutes at least) and give everyone a little update.

Since I got out of the hospital I have been doing a lot of doctors appointments. I have seen my primacy care and my cardiologist, my physical therapist, a mental therapist and an eye doctor. I will be seeing a dentist on Thursday and my appointment with the Social Security office for my disability paper work is the 20th. I have had to speak with my cardiologist a few times about my medications but have been able to go with out seeing one until yesterday.
On Sunday, I got home from a day out and took off my shoes and my feet were very puffy (I had cankles). It was terrifying because that can be a symptom of Congestive Heart Failure. LUCKILY!!! It was just a reaction to the super dose of verapamil I am on. The FDA has approved/studied verapamil for up to 480mg, but HOCM (my disease) studies show that it can be helpful if you take 600mg. Therefore, I am taking the 600mg, but one of the side effects is swollen feet. I told the doctor that as long as it wasn't CHF then I am okay with it. It may not be the most comfortable thing in the world but it was nothing compared to the pain that my heart is in when I am on no medication. I do think that the verapamil is working but I do not know if it is working enough to stop taking the pain killers. When I finally get all my pain management stuff together I will hopefully be able to stop taking the methadone and try something a little less addicting.
I have also seen a case manager who has been slightly helpful but also a bit of a headache. I am glad that the doctors warned me about it but I think its ridiculous to have people that are supposed to help that just don't get it. I had a referral in for cardiac rehab and somehow when I called the central appointment line to make other appointments they made me an echo when I asked about cardiac rehab, it made absolutely no sense. When I went in for the appointment (i didn't know it was an echo until I showed up) they explained that my referral was in there but didn't looked like it had been sent to the network. The "network" is doctors in the area that accept Tri-care, referrals get sent to the network when the military hospital can't see you themselves. I wasn't exactly sure how to fix this so I figured I would try my case manager. She did not get the problem at all and instead of looking up my referral she just told me to get a new referral. I was so pissed! So instead I decided I would call referral management. The lady I ended up speaking to knew my name from helping my case manager with my pain management referral. She was very helpful and got everything straightened out. However in the end we found out that a referral wasn't needed for cardiac rehab, just a written prescription. Then I called my primary care asking for the prescription he never called me back, so when I went to the cardiologist for my feet yesterday I asked about it and was told that with my disease and my heart the way it is, the rehab was a bad idea. So all in all, it was pointless but I did learn that even with a case manager you really have to do things by yourself.
As for the issues with my pain management, Tri-care referred me to a doctor that is not actually taking patients for anything except injections. I called my case manager and she spoke with referral management and got a list of doctors that I could go to. However, to get an authorization code the doctor has to approve to accept me. Because of this we had to send my records out to multiple places in the area and are still waiting for a response.

On another note, the past few days have been pretty good...until today. On Saturday, Dan, Jeremy and I went to the Home and Garden show. We got tons of information and entered a lot of drawings. The only bad thing is that because I put my real number so that if we won they could call, they are calling me CONSTANTLY!! to make appointments to show us their products. They call two or three times in a row then call again later, it is very annoying especially when I can't answer the phone.
On Sunday, I went to church with my friend Krystyn. Krystyn and I have known each other for a long time as we both grew up going to the same church in California. Her church was very different from what we are used to. First Baptist was(is) a very traditional church. The church she goes to now is much more contemporary. We then went back to Krystyn's for lunch with some friends that she wanted me to meet. I am very shy around groups of people, especially people I do not know so it was very intimidating to be there. They were very nice people and have a very strong relationship with God. It was why Krystyn wanted me to meet them but I had no idea that they were so close with him. It was an amazing experience. They all prayed for healing for my heart which was awesome. It was probably one of the coolest experiences I have ever had. The only thing that could have made it better was if I had a better relationship with God, and if I hadn't been so nervous. I have been invited to spend time with them again and I am really looking forward to the opportunity. On Monday, I actually think God "talked" to me also. I got a Bible from First Baptist for graduating high school and it has a lot of study stuff in the back. While at Krystyn's I was told to look up verses about healing so I looked it up in the back of my bible in the chain verse section. It said that the chain verses section started on page 1659. However instead of looking at the page numbers like I was supposed to be I was looking at the numbers at the top of the page because I thought those were the page numbers and the numbers on top were actually "topic" numbers. The topic that was associated with 1659 (which actually showed at the top of the page even though there were more topics on that page) was Family Troubles. There have been a lot of family issues in my life even now that need to be worked on. It was like he was telling me to start there. It was very exciting.
I was also supposed to meet with one of the owners yesterday because they got rid of the management company last Friday and I couldn't make it to the meeting they had over the weekend because I wanted to go to church. I am not quite sure what they want me to do and how they want it done since everything I was doing before was for the management company. I do hope that this will make work better, but since I was unable to go do to having to get my feet checked I do not know what is going on. I called the owner and asked him if he could reschedule and he said that would be fine. Of course he left out that we was going out of town, so when I called him today he seemed mad at me, even though he was completely okay with it yesterday. So now I am meeting with a different owner tomorrow. Of course he said he doesn't know everything that they want so who knows what is going on. Part of me wishes they would let me go so that I could get unemployment while I work towards my disability.
Today I went to the eye doctor. It has been many many years since I have gone so it was time. It came out that i have astigmatism and a focus problem and need glasses again. The problem with that is Tri-care only pays for the actually doctor appointment but they do not pay for the glasses for dependents. The eye doctors office was going to give me 20% off of the total which with everything I need and the frames I picked out was 499.20. I agreed to pay for half of it today and then the rest when I picked them up. I called Dan to tell him and he was very upset. So i went back in and got my money back and got the prescription and went to the air force base and picked out frames there (that aren't nearly as cute as the other ones) and with everything I needed was 433.00. I asked Dan what he wanted me to do but he said he didn't care. So I didn't get glasses. He obviously cares so I figured I would wait until he is willing to talk about it. I know that they are expensive and expected them to be expensive because our insurance doesn't cover them. However, Dan's glasses are covered by the insurance so I guess he wasn't expecting it. Neither of us were expecting me to need glasses either. So now I have no idea what to do. I would rather get the glasses that I really like if I am going to have to wear them, but because they are the more expensive I don't want to get them because I do not want to fight with Dan. So I am going to go to Sam's Club after work and see what there. I just want to cry, I am so tired of things that are needed in life being so expensive.

Well I think that is enough for tonight. It has taken an hour to write this blog (with some stops because I am watching 90210 :) ).

Have a great night everyone.

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10 Cool Secrets About Disneyland...

thanks mommy :)

Honey...I'm Home

Hey Everyone I am home from the hospital. In the 5 days I was there we got a lot done...
Here is a list:
♥ Stopped Toprol (beta-blocker, heart medication)
♥ Started Verapimil (calcium-blocker, heart medication)
♥ Turned on Pacemaker, therefore increasing heart rate and blood pressure
♥ Re-hydrated
♥ Stopped Ranolizine (heart medication)

Here is a list of what I need to do at the doctors tomorrow:
♥ Discuss increasing Verapimil dose
♥ Get Vision referral
♥ Get Physical Therapy referral
♥ Ask for nausea prescription for when needed
♥ Ask for arm blood pressure cuff prescription
♥ Find out about disability paper work for Federal Jobs

What I need to do outside of the doctor:
♥ Call to get my Psych appointment for a medication check
♥ Find out about partial disability that allows me to work part time.


So much to do...ahh!!

pacemaker

So here is a quick update from my little pow wow with the docs this morning.
They have decided to turn on my pace maker to pace my heart all the time. They say that it will help get me onto the new meds because my heart rate will be higher so I will have a better chance of tolerating the medication. They are only pacing the atrium (the top half) and then letting the ventricles (the bottom half) follow along. They werent sure if my heart would do it properly but it did which is good. Pacing the ventricles too much can lead to heart failure or other problems quicker.
It gave me a headache and made me feel weird at first but now I can't tell which is really good.
They did not have to give me a transfusion which they mentioned yesterday because my blood counts were only low because of all the fluid they put in me. However they did have to give me some magnesium because my 3am blood work showed that my magnesium and protein were low. They just came in and pulled more blood so hopefully it will be good now.
They also want me to start moving around more and walking around the nurses area and what not. That makes me really nervous because just walking to the bathroom is hard. I get really dizzy and feel really weak sometimes. I also get really short of breath. Hopefully with my heart rate going a little faster that will help.
I dont know when I am going home but probably in the next day or so as long as I start feeling better. They said I looked better which is good but I am not feeling much better. I am still hurting a lot. I feel like my heart is like the size of a basketball trying to fit into an orange. It is soo tight. It is tight always but when they give me pain meds it helps easy the pain that comes with the tightness and pressure.
I will update again later. time to doze :)

PCU ward of NMCP

So here I am again, my "home away from home". I am in the Progressive Care Unit at Naval Medical Center Portsmouth.
I came in yesterday with severe chest pain and dizziness. It has been a crappy two days but I am still alive, that is the most important part. We don't know why I am having such bad dizzy spells but we are hoping they just go away. I was in the process of changing heart medications so I am on very low dosages which could in the end be par tof the problem. They have decided to switch the medicines faster since I am being monitored and don't have to go to the clinic every few days before I change the medications more. It is such a mess but hopefully it will all work out.
Please keep up they prayers. They are definitely needed.

Thank you and good night :)

Slowly Getting Better

So my year has gotten somewhat better. I am still dealing with a complete bitch at work and depending on how monday goes I may be saying it is me or her, HOPEFULLY it will be me and she will be gone and then everyone will be happy again. Besides her work hasnt been too bad. I have been super busy but I am caught up so I don't feel bad taking it easy anymore. I had a lot to clean up and get organized....it only took 3 1/2 weeks....but I am done! Now i just have to keep up and everything will be fine and dandy.
This with Dan have been awesome. We have been spending a lot of time together and went out on a date the other night. We went and say Marley and Me. It was very cute :) the end did make me get tears in my eyes which did overflow but I did not cry outright. However the girl a few seats over was sobbing and i think her boyfriend was asleep.LOL!
Last night we had Dill (who is living with us) James(Godwin), Jeremy, Esmie and baby Jayden over for dinner. It was a lot of fun and I got to spend tons of time with Jayden. I have now really seen him awake. I saw him awake a little last weekend when we drove up to Fredricksburg for the day, but last night was just so much fun. I got to feed him and just chill with him :).
Now last weekend we went to Fredricksburg to get something from Esmie's moms house while she was up there visiting. It was a nice day just chillin in the car, I slept a little and talked with Jeremy and Dan a lot which was nice. Joel and Sam also came down which was nice. The night they got here was Friday January 2nd and I was having an awful afternoon. But on Saturday morning I went out with Sam and we got mani,pedis and our eye brows done. Now that was a morning of firsts. I have never let anyone outside my family touch my feet and let me tell you I would go every day if I could now. The chair that you sit in is a huge massaging chair and it was heaven. I want one of those chairs for myself :) Then Sam was getting her eye brows done and i decided to be brave and get mine done too.. While it didnt hurt then they were a little sore a couple days later and i had a lot of little bumps like wanna be zits or ingrown hairs, but those are all gone now :) I also started using that Neutrogina wave which is awesome. I use it in the morning and it makes my face tingle, especially the first time. Then with the cold my face as been so dry from the heater running so i started using neutrogina mosturizer and now my face feels btter.. :)

anyways I will post some pictures from last night a little later (and pictures of the deer in the backyard) But for now im going to bug dan so that we can do somethign so i don't fall asleep sitting her eon the couch. He is reading New Moon from the Twilight series and I cant get him away from it this mroning :(

Have a good day!

i hate 2009

yup so i officially hate 2009.. lets see how much worse it is going to treat me.. at this rate id be better off dead by the end of the weekend. Then at least i wont be so miserable.

stupid f*ing new year

So its a new year and everyone is saying happy new year.. good for you but i don't want to hear it.
I thought my day was going to be good, but I should have known better because that is not how my life is. My day went from good to shitty to awful. I am not completely discouraged and totally angry.
I slept in nice and late, waking up about 9 but not getting bed until 930. Took a shower and left for work. Decided I would start my day off with a delicious hot chocolate from Starbucks. Starbucks now has this gold card thing that is 25 dollars to join and you get 10% off and a free drink on your bday, but other great "surprises" threw the year. Little did I know that you also get a free drink when you join. I joined this morning and planned on using a free coupon I had to get my drink. I was excited to find out I could save it and use it for another time. With that great luck I expected my day to go well.... Then I walked in the doors at work....

The first thing Pablo says to me is "you are going to need to sit down for what I have to tell you". I find out that between a couple rooms there were a few fights in public areas last night. Thankfully nothing was damaged and the cops didn't need to get involved. Technically Pablo probably should have told them they needed to leave but it is okay that he didn't. He also told me that one of these rooms was a room full of girls who decided they would go skinny dipping in our pool. He said there was a bunch of alcohol in the pool area and other stuff that he had to clean up. All in all it wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be.
It took me about 2 hours to finish all of my daily report which was sad but I was checking people out and I kept getting side tracked by other things that I needed to do. So I finished my report and started working on my month end. That had me completely confused so i emailed Dave and asked him to look over it before I left. I also called him so he would know that I need him to look at it because he doesn't always read his emails in a timely fashion.
Today I also found out that I was very wrong about things being better with Nikki. I was told that at the Christmas dinner the owners told her what a great job she did setting up. She then took it upon herself to tell that the management isn't any good in the hotel and if she was given a chance and trained she could do better. That pissed me off so bad. I am tired of her thinking she is better then me when she makes more fuck ups then anyone else. She thinks just because she has more hotel experience that the sun shines out her ass. I know everything about this hotel and she just needs to get that in her head. Now it makes more sense why Dave thought about training her. Miss Vicki also told me that she told Nikki not to give someone a free night but to just give them a discount. Nikki ignored her even thought she had questioned Miss Vicki on what to do and gave the man a free night anyways. She also through a fit the other day when Charlene was helping her and Miss Vicki told Charlene that she needed to go do her own work. She was bitching about how people don't work together and the management doesn't understand team work and all this bullshit. Its like she doesn't realize that people have their own jobs to do before they can help everyone else. By this point I was furious and decided that with all of that and the way she talks to me telling me what to do and how to do my job ( just like she does everyone else) in front of my mom which I think kind of offended my mom that I was going to email that to Dave also. Hopefully Dave will be able to help and we can get rid of her....