Loss, Sadness, & Sickness

Today is "he-who-shall-not-be-named"'s 9 year transplant-iversary. Happy day to him right? Mr. I am going to continue to treat you like crap, want nothing to do with you etc... Why does he get 9 years and a girl still so young in life loose her fight just before she hits 15 months?? How does he get 9 years and a little girl barely make it to her first birthday? He is such a smug asshole!

It is such a bittersweet day. He has gotten 9 years and their lives were cut sooo short. Its also bitter sweet because not only would she have hit 15 months tomorrow....but I hit 27 months. She had her transplant a year (exactly) after me.

Dan is gone for the weekend and i already miss him. Its going to be a hard couple of days, being alone and dealing w/ all the loss and frustration.

And if that isn't enough, my youngest brother is sick w/ a viral infection and a temp of 103. AND Dan's grandma is in the hospital, hasn't been able to eat for 3 days waiting for an upper scope and been dealing with heart arrhythmias.

This weekend i will be working really hard to remember-- "I can do all things through him who strengthens me" -Philippians 4:13