Honey...I'm Home

Hey Everyone I am home from the hospital. In the 5 days I was there we got a lot done...
Here is a list:
♥ Stopped Toprol (beta-blocker, heart medication)
♥ Started Verapimil (calcium-blocker, heart medication)
♥ Turned on Pacemaker, therefore increasing heart rate and blood pressure
♥ Re-hydrated
♥ Stopped Ranolizine (heart medication)

Here is a list of what I need to do at the doctors tomorrow:
♥ Discuss increasing Verapimil dose
♥ Get Vision referral
♥ Get Physical Therapy referral
♥ Ask for nausea prescription for when needed
♥ Ask for arm blood pressure cuff prescription
♥ Find out about disability paper work for Federal Jobs

What I need to do outside of the doctor:
♥ Call to get my Psych appointment for a medication check
♥ Find out about partial disability that allows me to work part time.


So much to do...ahh!!

pacemaker

So here is a quick update from my little pow wow with the docs this morning.
They have decided to turn on my pace maker to pace my heart all the time. They say that it will help get me onto the new meds because my heart rate will be higher so I will have a better chance of tolerating the medication. They are only pacing the atrium (the top half) and then letting the ventricles (the bottom half) follow along. They werent sure if my heart would do it properly but it did which is good. Pacing the ventricles too much can lead to heart failure or other problems quicker.
It gave me a headache and made me feel weird at first but now I can't tell which is really good.
They did not have to give me a transfusion which they mentioned yesterday because my blood counts were only low because of all the fluid they put in me. However they did have to give me some magnesium because my 3am blood work showed that my magnesium and protein were low. They just came in and pulled more blood so hopefully it will be good now.
They also want me to start moving around more and walking around the nurses area and what not. That makes me really nervous because just walking to the bathroom is hard. I get really dizzy and feel really weak sometimes. I also get really short of breath. Hopefully with my heart rate going a little faster that will help.
I dont know when I am going home but probably in the next day or so as long as I start feeling better. They said I looked better which is good but I am not feeling much better. I am still hurting a lot. I feel like my heart is like the size of a basketball trying to fit into an orange. It is soo tight. It is tight always but when they give me pain meds it helps easy the pain that comes with the tightness and pressure.
I will update again later. time to doze :)

PCU ward of NMCP

So here I am again, my "home away from home". I am in the Progressive Care Unit at Naval Medical Center Portsmouth.
I came in yesterday with severe chest pain and dizziness. It has been a crappy two days but I am still alive, that is the most important part. We don't know why I am having such bad dizzy spells but we are hoping they just go away. I was in the process of changing heart medications so I am on very low dosages which could in the end be par tof the problem. They have decided to switch the medicines faster since I am being monitored and don't have to go to the clinic every few days before I change the medications more. It is such a mess but hopefully it will all work out.
Please keep up they prayers. They are definitely needed.

Thank you and good night :)

Slowly Getting Better

So my year has gotten somewhat better. I am still dealing with a complete bitch at work and depending on how monday goes I may be saying it is me or her, HOPEFULLY it will be me and she will be gone and then everyone will be happy again. Besides her work hasnt been too bad. I have been super busy but I am caught up so I don't feel bad taking it easy anymore. I had a lot to clean up and get organized....it only took 3 1/2 weeks....but I am done! Now i just have to keep up and everything will be fine and dandy.
This with Dan have been awesome. We have been spending a lot of time together and went out on a date the other night. We went and say Marley and Me. It was very cute :) the end did make me get tears in my eyes which did overflow but I did not cry outright. However the girl a few seats over was sobbing and i think her boyfriend was asleep.LOL!
Last night we had Dill (who is living with us) James(Godwin), Jeremy, Esmie and baby Jayden over for dinner. It was a lot of fun and I got to spend tons of time with Jayden. I have now really seen him awake. I saw him awake a little last weekend when we drove up to Fredricksburg for the day, but last night was just so much fun. I got to feed him and just chill with him :).
Now last weekend we went to Fredricksburg to get something from Esmie's moms house while she was up there visiting. It was a nice day just chillin in the car, I slept a little and talked with Jeremy and Dan a lot which was nice. Joel and Sam also came down which was nice. The night they got here was Friday January 2nd and I was having an awful afternoon. But on Saturday morning I went out with Sam and we got mani,pedis and our eye brows done. Now that was a morning of firsts. I have never let anyone outside my family touch my feet and let me tell you I would go every day if I could now. The chair that you sit in is a huge massaging chair and it was heaven. I want one of those chairs for myself :) Then Sam was getting her eye brows done and i decided to be brave and get mine done too.. While it didnt hurt then they were a little sore a couple days later and i had a lot of little bumps like wanna be zits or ingrown hairs, but those are all gone now :) I also started using that Neutrogina wave which is awesome. I use it in the morning and it makes my face tingle, especially the first time. Then with the cold my face as been so dry from the heater running so i started using neutrogina mosturizer and now my face feels btter.. :)

anyways I will post some pictures from last night a little later (and pictures of the deer in the backyard) But for now im going to bug dan so that we can do somethign so i don't fall asleep sitting her eon the couch. He is reading New Moon from the Twilight series and I cant get him away from it this mroning :(

Have a good day!

i hate 2009

yup so i officially hate 2009.. lets see how much worse it is going to treat me.. at this rate id be better off dead by the end of the weekend. Then at least i wont be so miserable.

stupid f*ing new year

So its a new year and everyone is saying happy new year.. good for you but i don't want to hear it.
I thought my day was going to be good, but I should have known better because that is not how my life is. My day went from good to shitty to awful. I am not completely discouraged and totally angry.
I slept in nice and late, waking up about 9 but not getting bed until 930. Took a shower and left for work. Decided I would start my day off with a delicious hot chocolate from Starbucks. Starbucks now has this gold card thing that is 25 dollars to join and you get 10% off and a free drink on your bday, but other great "surprises" threw the year. Little did I know that you also get a free drink when you join. I joined this morning and planned on using a free coupon I had to get my drink. I was excited to find out I could save it and use it for another time. With that great luck I expected my day to go well.... Then I walked in the doors at work....

The first thing Pablo says to me is "you are going to need to sit down for what I have to tell you". I find out that between a couple rooms there were a few fights in public areas last night. Thankfully nothing was damaged and the cops didn't need to get involved. Technically Pablo probably should have told them they needed to leave but it is okay that he didn't. He also told me that one of these rooms was a room full of girls who decided they would go skinny dipping in our pool. He said there was a bunch of alcohol in the pool area and other stuff that he had to clean up. All in all it wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be.
It took me about 2 hours to finish all of my daily report which was sad but I was checking people out and I kept getting side tracked by other things that I needed to do. So I finished my report and started working on my month end. That had me completely confused so i emailed Dave and asked him to look over it before I left. I also called him so he would know that I need him to look at it because he doesn't always read his emails in a timely fashion.
Today I also found out that I was very wrong about things being better with Nikki. I was told that at the Christmas dinner the owners told her what a great job she did setting up. She then took it upon herself to tell that the management isn't any good in the hotel and if she was given a chance and trained she could do better. That pissed me off so bad. I am tired of her thinking she is better then me when she makes more fuck ups then anyone else. She thinks just because she has more hotel experience that the sun shines out her ass. I know everything about this hotel and she just needs to get that in her head. Now it makes more sense why Dave thought about training her. Miss Vicki also told me that she told Nikki not to give someone a free night but to just give them a discount. Nikki ignored her even thought she had questioned Miss Vicki on what to do and gave the man a free night anyways. She also through a fit the other day when Charlene was helping her and Miss Vicki told Charlene that she needed to go do her own work. She was bitching about how people don't work together and the management doesn't understand team work and all this bullshit. Its like she doesn't realize that people have their own jobs to do before they can help everyone else. By this point I was furious and decided that with all of that and the way she talks to me telling me what to do and how to do my job ( just like she does everyone else) in front of my mom which I think kind of offended my mom that I was going to email that to Dave also. Hopefully Dave will be able to help and we can get rid of her....